For some reason I logged onto this today. i probably will never write in here. I have changed so much.
I am happy where everything is right now, for the most part.

am so relaxed right now.

sleeping on my porch is my new favorite thing, it gets down to 50 degrees and I like escaping from summer.
I've been feeling better.
orientation is in a couple days.
i like the smell of new clothes.

I need someone to talk to.

as usual, nothing is turning out right.
summer is almost over and im kind of happy in a way, im more than ready for fall and a change.

 ecrovid

this is the main topic at home, and come to think of it i guess it has been for years, but in my opinion the lady i call mom is getting more serious about it.

I keep picking at my scabs.
I cant help but be negative.

I wish someone would pay attention to me.
I cant think in full, clear thoughts.

I have realized a lot this summer and that is the result of me sitting around at home doing nothing.
some good and some bad.
nothing ever turns out how I want it to but i guess it's just a part of life i cant change but i just wish things would get a little better for me, even if its just something itsy bitsy, I just need enough to make me happy.

well the part of the world im in right now should be waking up soon. 
ive had 2 cups of tea and have been exploring the music world ,i cant tell if im sleepy or not. 
Summer is good so far. i am care free and alive. its a nice feeling. i always forget about reading but now i wont because ill look here and remember. I need to start my new books. 
so nothing is planned this week, maybe someone will call and ask to do something fun. 
okay. i need new clothes, being broke sucks. I have maybe 3 things to wear. 
i want a vacation, well it is vacation but you know i feel like going somewhere, hopefully i will be going to chicago with merritt soon.